Wednesday, May 21, 2008 @ 2:44 pm
I'm telling you right here right now
That I was not ______ you.
You are the one ________ me.
Don't accuse me of it.
I have enough on my plate already.
There are many things which caused a heavy impact on me physically and mentally recently.
Another just came from QiQi yesterday.
Maybe you'd know about these things.
But I guess not.
I don't have the energy/strength for anymore problems.
So I'll just let it be.
Until maybe you'll want to think it over.
Well, since you thought that way,
I grant you your wish.Now that I am,
It could be better than perhaps increase the stress between us due to this stupid matter.
Exasperation. Exhaustion.
I hope you'll understand.
It's weird.
Don't take things the wrong way.
I'm just telling you,
Whether or not you want to understand,
It's all up to you.
I can't say I expected better of you.
I won't.
I'm not qualified to, I suppose.And I don't want to.
But perhaps it's true that I'm not understood.My reaction was WHUT?! when I heard from Alfred.Usually I know what I did to cause you to feel that way.But this time, HELL NO.I felt so wronged.Why did you think that way when it makes you upset?I'm confused.I would say this situation fits perfectly with the words/phrases from my previous post.Not all, obviously.Which wasn't really targetting this matter.Holidays are coming.One month.After that we'll probably never be the same again.Because of little rubbish crap misunderstandings like that?It's not worth it.If the sight of me irks you now,Well what I feared most would probably come true.If it was any other shit,I would've probably told her to get the hell out of my life.But hey,Your aren't just any random shit and you know it.I don't need this at a time like this when I'm so stressed out that exhaustion seems permanent.
